Monday, January 5
According to the book I read, birds in our garden tell their fellow birds to “get together” when I refill the seed bowl.
Tuesday, January 6
Early in the morning, my mom told me to go check the garden because there was “something” she didn’t want to check. I thought it was probably a dead animal, so I nervously approached it with a stick. From afar, it looked like feathers. But when I looked at it closely, it was… I don’t know what it was… a mass of hair? Or it looked like a toupee used on stage or something. I told my mom about it, and she checked it herself and said it was a broom without a stick. I don’t know what it was exactly. And the question is, why was it there?
Wednesday, January 7
Last year, I took a CT scan of my teeth. I was told to close my eyes gently, but from time to time I checked the process with half-closed eyes. A camera was rotating around my head, and the whole thing was just like the scanning process we see in science fiction movies. It was so surreal that during the scan I was lost in thoughts like, “Am I really human? Or am I actually an android with all my past information installed yesterday?”
And from that scan until today, I have spent my days with a sense of tension. Not because I was questioning my existence, but because the scan found out that I needed to have a wisdom tooth removed. It was the first time for me. The nervousness and cold sweat I felt today were effing real. I’m human, after all.
Thursday, January 8
Although there’s a feeling of discomfort, I don’t feel any pain. And I slept well last night. But when I looked in the mirror, half of my cheek was swollen. I looked like Anpanman.
Friday, January 9
I’m still half Anpanman, with a little bit less filling than yesterday. I’m already fed up with eating jelly and pudding as a meal, so I had rice porridge for dinner. It was so good…
This week’s track
Koji Tamaki – 行かないで (Ikanaide)
